cant go back.

[taken around christmas time...one of the shut-ins my dad and i visit every year.]

lately i have been struggling with growing up. i do not want to grow up, it is very scary to me.

i also dont like change. which probably has to do a lot with not wanting to grow up because everything and everyone will change.

but i was surfing on itunes a few days ago and came across a band called "the weepies" i heard a demo and they sounded great. so i bought their cd.

yesterday i was listening to the first song on the cd and its called "cant go back now".

although the tune was catchy, my mind caught onto the lyrics.

i dont know if it was Gods timing for me to hear that song or if it was just pure luck.

i am going for God on this one.

the title says it all "cant go back now", its true...i cant go back to being a young teen i cant go back to being a child...i have to "walk on".

although life may get hard...we cant stop...we have to keep moving on...and i will be right there with you in troubled times.


"cant go back now"...the weepies

Yesterday, when you were young,
Everything you needed done was done for you.
Now you do it on your own
But you find you're all alone,
What can you do?

You and me walk on
Cause you can't go back now.

You know there will be days when you're so tired that you can't take another step,
The night will have no stars and you'll think you've gone as far as you will ever get

But you and me walk on
Cause you can't go back now
And yeah, yeah, go where you want to go
Be what you want to be,
If you ever turn around, you'll see me.

I can't really say why everybody wishes they were somewhere else
But in the end, the only steps that matter are the ones you take all by yourself

And you and me walk on
Yeah you and me walk on
Cause you can't go back now
Walk on, walk on, walk on
You can't go back now

back the basics of GOD.

[taken at january 1,2008 at my house.]

i am tired of this generation.

you want to know why?

i will tell you why.

because when i was a child things were so simple. go outside and play only go in to eat then go right back outside.

the children of today stay inside play their "wii" go outside to get something out of the car then back inside to play video games that do nothing for them.

same with the christian life.

i am sick and tired of this generations view on christianity.

oh wait, the reason why i dont like it is because no one cares about other peoples salvation. they would rather watch church on television than get off their behinds and go to church and get involved.

when i was a child i went to church i was involved i was striving to know God.

but i dont see that much anymore. i dont see people striving to be like Christ.

what happened?

is it because of the "wii" games? internet? cellphones? money? movies? music?

whatever the reason is, God has been put second in your life.

why dont we go back to the times when life was simple and witnessing was so easy?

as the world keeps moving forward and changing God is the same as yesterday today tomorrow and forever.

what will it be?

getting back to the basics of life?

or moving forward with this world?

God is so awesome!

[taken october 8, 2006]

look how beautiful and amazing the sunset is!

God is just totally awesome like it blows my mind!

God forgives sin and loves and cares deeply for his children and grants news mercies every single day!

how can someone not believe in God when this photo shows the awesomeness of God!?

who else can take the sun and as it sets to change it different colors and reflect it off of the lake? NO ONE!

God is just so awesome! not only did he send his son Jesus Christ to die on the cross to save us from our sins and give us eternal life in heaven with him for all who believe, he also gave us another day to live. another chance at redemption. another day to glorify him. another day to accept and listen to his awesome and mighty word. another day to grow closer to him. another day to see what he has created. another day to realize how awesome and powerful he is.

God is so awesome i cannot even begin to explain.

God is my Heavenly Father and i love him with all my heart mind and soul.

do you?

do you even believe?

if not, why not?

if you would like to know more read the book or rent the video called "The Case for Christ" by lee strobel, you will not regret it!

life in death.

[i took this picture in new york when i was there in may/june]

this may seem like an ordinary picture of a grave yard. but there is something more that is deeper than anyone could see.

when you look at a tree you dont think its dead you know it is alive and growing. but when you look at a tombstone you dont think it is alive or growing, its dead, and sort of creepy.

the tree in the picture reminds me that since i am not enslaved to sin any more that means when i die on earth that is not the end of my life. its just the beginning. the tree is blocking the tombstone, meaning i can not die to this earth because Jesus has paved the way to have everlasting life. i know that i will not die and stay dead, instead i will die to stay alive.

would you rather die and stay dead, or would you rather die to live.

your choice.