Friday, August 31, 2007

hbu.



[taken like a few hours ago in the dorm!]

-i did not take this pic, because i am in the pic!-

anyway these are my suite mates and my roomate!

from left to right starting from the top!

amna, erica, sheena, me, raquel, sarah, and molly!

amna and erica are roomates, sheena and i roomates we hosted raquel for the week, then sarah and molly are roomates!

God has blessed me with amazing girls to live with. God is an awesome God. i cant wait till what the school year brings for us and our relationship. i love them all!

hbu is amazing. God is doing amazing things in my life. thank you all for those who prayed for me!

Sunday, August 26, 2007

caution.



[taken last week at the beach]

as i watched him walk on the beach he was so careful about where he stepped. normally little kids would just run or step on anything. but he was being very cautious and safe. how many of us walk keeping in mind that we could step on something that could hurt us? i am guessing not very many of us do.

those of us who dont watch where we are going we become disoriented a little because we thought nothing would be in our way. but then again those of us who watch where we walk just feel stupid by the fact we just tripped over something that we just saw.

isnt that what its like in our walk with christ?

if we follow where God is leading us we will be cautious in what we do we will end up safe and sound. although we may mess up and feel stupid because we knew what was going to happen even before we did it. but if we do not follow Gods way then we will end up angry at ourselves because nothing went right and is still not going right. nothing will get fixed unless you fix your eyes on God. you will keep going in the same pattern of the life you live until you want what God wants.

just think about it.

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

thank you.



[as you can tell i did not take these but this is something special i am going to do, so please be patient with me.]

i want to thank my family for giving me a new life. the first pictures are of my siblings and i and the second on is the one of my parents and i.

chris, thank you so much for being my big brother and for actually caring so much about me that you wanted me in the family. thank you so much for everything you have ever done for me. thank you for all the times i have spent with you. i love you so much!

brian, thank you for always spending time with me. thank you for being my brother and for loving me. thank you for everything. thank you for all the wonderful times i had losing at monopoly! (for 10 years!) i love you!

jojo, thank you so much for being like my second mom. thank you for always taking care of me and spending time with me. thank you for getting away all the bad thoughts in my head when i was little. thank you for being someone i can look up to. thank you for loving me. i love you jojo!!

robbie, thank you for being my brother who had the courage to pick on me! thank you for not getting jealous when you were no longer the baby! thank you most of all for caring for me and allowing me to be your little sister. thank you for letting me spend time with you. i love you!


the next picture is where the emotions are gonna come flowing out!

dad, thank you for being the best dad in the world. i know at times you cant tell that i love you but i really do! thank you for wanting me and for taking care of me. thank you for taking me fishing and on daddy daughter dates. those were always so important to me. thank you so much for all that you have done for me! i love you daddy!

mom, thank you for being the best mom in the world. thank you for adopting me. thank you for giving me a new life. thank you for all the time of snuggling with you. thank you for loving me. you saved me from hell. thank you. thank you for not giving up on me when times got rough. thank you so much for giving me hope. i love you mommy!

harley, thank you for being the best dog ever and my best friend!

sorry i had to add the last one in!

there is so much for to say but at this moment i really cant get them out in words.

my family, i want to thank every single one of you for getting me ready for this time in my life. thank you for all of your support and prayers. i love you all!

jessica.

"Love Heals" off of the movie "Rent"

-press play-

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

for good.



[i took this picture a while back in my back yard.]

-sorry this is something personal to me. i will get back to my regular posts soon.-

its time to face the fact that i am leaving my life i know behind. i know i am only going to college but still, i dont want to leave all i know behind.

there are so many things i wish i could say but everytime i try i get emotional.

so i tryed my best to find the song that would explain my feelings the best.

"For Good" from the broadway show "Wicked"

-push play-



-push play-

Friday, August 10, 2007

love?



[taken in new york when i went in may/june]

-i am taking things on a different level now. this song is by the black eyed peas, and there is so much truth in this song that i have nothing else to add. i hope that you will actualyl get this and understand why this song goes with this picture. if you have any questions please ask me.-



"Where Is The Love?"

What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin'
In the USA, the big CIA
The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Madness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates
Man, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

It just ain't the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
Nations droppin' bombs
Chemical gasses fillin' lungs of little ones
With ongoin' sufferin' as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the lovin' really gone
So I could ask myself really what is goin' wrong
In this world that we livin' in people keep on givin'
in
Makin' wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin' each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin' on but the reason's undercover
The truth is kept secret, it's swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where's the love, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the truth, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the love, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love, the love, the love?

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' our wrong direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids wanna act like what they see in the cinema
Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead of spreading love we're spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive till love is found
Now ask yourself

Where is the love?
Where is the love?
Where is the love?
Where is the love?

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love?

Sing wit me y'all:
One world, one world (We only got)
One world, one world (That's all we got)
One world, one world
And something's wrong wit it (Yeah)
Something's wrong wit it (Yeah)
Something's wrong wit the wo-wo-world, yeah
We only got
(One world, one world)
That's all we got
(One world, one world)

Thursday, August 9, 2007

random.



[i took this in new york when i went in may/june]

The Rules:
1. I have to post these rules before I give you the facts.
2. Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
3. People who are tagged need to write their own blog (about their eight things) and post these rules. (**if you’re a non-blogger, you can email them!)
4. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
5. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.


8 Random Facts or Habits about me:
1. i can not go to sleep without my stuffed animal frog, his name is froggy.
2. i listen to celtic music when i have a hard time going to sleep.
3. i have had more than 5 flat tires all within a few months.
4. i have never won monopoly.
5. my favorite movie of all time is "girl of the limberlost".
6. i have over 15 hoodies in my closet.
7. i have broken my retainters more than the average person.
8. i secretly want to be a comedian.
This is the bonus fact:
i am really in like with michael jacksons music!

okay now that, that is over i can tag someone else.

i tag...ummm...i dont know who to tage, so if you are reading this then i guess you just got tagged by me!

Sunday, August 5, 2007

baby steps.



[taken monday of last week]

seeing a beautiful baby boy being born reminded me of how much we as christians are still like babies.

as we accept Jesus into our hearts for the first time we become baby christians. once your a baby christian you grow spiritually within your relationship with Christ. but for some of us we dont want to grow. we still want to be spoon fed and are not willing to take that giant step from baby christian to an adult christian. the baby's foot represents our walk with Christ. we have to take baby steps to learn how to walk then from there you learn how to run. thats just like walking with Christ, you just cant get up and run you have to learn to walk and getting into that habbit of wanting to walk faster and then even running with God.

this is my best friends baby. and it took me until he was born to realize that i still have not grown much from a baby christian.

you choose whether you want to grow or still stay a baby christian.